Category Archives: Meep

I don’t want things.. I don’t want materialism.. I don’t want anxieties.. I don’t want to worry about things… I want to love God and love others. Why can’t it just be that simple? Can it be? Sometimes it feels like it can, and then life keeps happening.

I was thinking today about how I’m part of the first generation of kids to grow up with internet access… I don’t think any other single factor had more of an impact on my development during adolescence. Kinda sad.  I was pretty much playing with fire but it was too new for my parents to really be aware of the danger involved, although I don’t really know if it would have mattered if they had been aware. Probably not.

It makes me think about how teenagers today are the first group to really communicate via text and picture messages. Another thing that can be so damaging when given to a young kid with no rules or guidance attached.

This song makes me think about how things were and what could have been………. and then it makes me eternally thankful that God cared enough about me to rescue me. He really, really, really, really does redeem.

Now maybe
I didn’t mean to treat you bad
But I did it anyway
And then maybe
Some would say your life was sad
But you lived it anyway
And so maybe
Your friends they stand around they watch you crumble
As you falter to the ground
And then someday
Your friends they stand beside as you were flying
Oh you were flying oh so high
But then someday people look at you for what they call their own
They watch you suffer
Yeah they hear you calling home
And then some day we could take our time
To brush the leaves aside so you can reach us
But you left me far behind

Now maybe
I didn’t mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you’re left with what you had
But you couldn’t share the pain

No, no, no
Couldn’t share the pain, they watch you suffer
Now maybe I could have made my own mistakes
But I live with what I’ve known
And then maybe we might share in something rare
Won’t you look at where we’ve grown
Won’t you look at where we’ve gone
But then someday comes
Tomorrow holds a sense of what I feel for you in my mind
As you trip the final line
And that cold day when you lost control
Shame you left my life so soon you should have told me
But you left me far behind

Now maybe I didn’t mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe some would say you’re left with what you had
But you couldn’t share the pain No, no, no

Now maybe I didn’t mean to treat you oh so bad
But I did it anyway
Now maybe baby some would say you’re left with what you had
But you couldn’t share the pain
I said times have changed your friends
They come and watch you crumble to the ground
They watch you suffer
Yeah, they hold you down
Hold you down
Now maybe oh oh, maybe
I didn’t mean to treat you bad
But you left me far behind
Left me far behind
Left me far behind

God is good. All the time.

And I am so thankful to have the job that I have, and the opportunity to work where I work.

Just bought tickets to see RBF on 12/18 with Nate, Em, her guy, and Josh White. I haven’t really listened to them at all, minus the songs in Nate’s car, in a while…….I really want to see them, I love them and it’s a lot of fun, but I wonder how it will feel. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. I don’t feel very in the mood for hateful music and I want to break away from old life patterns. But I think it will be a fun night.

Psalm 73:

21 When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

I get feelings of inadequacy so often. These verses helped me today. Even if I have nothing, even if I were to have no friends, no Nate, no family, I would still have God. He will never leave me or forsake me, and he is there to comfort me always. No more senselessness and no more ignorance.