Lord, please help me to focus on what is right in front of me.
good feeling: the realization that going to bed crying is no longer a common occurrence.
Oh no, it go
It gone, bye bye
Who I, I think
I sink and I die
If you want to destroy my sweater
Hold this thread as I walk away
(As I walk away)
Watch me unravel, I’ll soon be naked
(Lying on the floor)
Lying on the floor,
I’ve come undone
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”
– John 15
My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirrorand, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.
– James 1
2 Corinthians 12: I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
I was told that Enbrel’s patent expired in 2012 and that then, a generic might appear and might be cheaper or whatever, but apparently their patent got extended another 16 years. I really wonder how this is going to affect me. It makes me want to cry just to think about not having that medicine, and what that might mean, especially now, with my weird foot. This is why I need to focus on gratitude and in being content in every circumstance, because I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
It’s just so hard to have it and then have it taken away from me. I hate the health insurance industry.